THE TIME YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT

Please!! Dont leave
Maybe not just yet

Believe me when i say its you i love, but i just dont know why its not you am with

Sometimes i wake up in the darkest of dawn watch her sleep and i miss you

I dont even knw why i am here i cant even put a finger on how we got here.

Sometimes i sit and miss the days we were young and free. The days you wouldnt stop talking even when i didnot say a word.

Those days when you where just enough for me, when not even the skimpest dresses driffted my eyes off you. Maybe that could have been the perfect time for you to leave.

But then here we are...and am her's. I am not complaining. cause i have learnt to love her like i did with you and i am in a happy place.

Not that am choosing her over you but it just happened and i have little control over my emotions lately. But it seems i might end up with her, and i know how much this hurts you so much you wanna leave, Leave me for her.

I already got down on one knee for her, but maybe if that where you you wouldnt want to leave. I thought about it too, that maybe it should have been you. But it wasnt. Its confusing i know. It confuses me too.

But trust me i dint mean for us to end up this way. Many times, most hours, countless days i try to drive down memory lane and i think you drove away.

At the lowest speed in a high way yet you managed to drive me away, slowly and unconsciously.

We were young happy and free then there came along our little girl and our lives where different, everything changed.

Yes she was our bundle of joy and yes we dint stop admiring her and yes she was all we could ever talk about and yes she did make me want us to always be around each other.

But as time went on you lost sight of me. I still wanted the fun maybe as much as you did too or i wanted it more. Maybe i was just still young and naive or maybe i just still wanted to be young and free

Yet i couldnt anymore, you lost sight of me and everything about us just changed. We werent young and free anymore, i contemplated leaving a couple of times..but i couldnt.

Cause we had her and i had to be responsible, you changed more than i did. You thought, talked reasoned, lived, acted like a mother
Only that you werent acting cause you were a mother.

Am sorry if i am playing the blame game, i  dont want to do that maybe am just tryna look around and figure out how we got here but i guess things just happened.

And we couldnt talk as much anymore, it became more of a business transcation than a love relationship.

I know am with her now and technically its like i choose her but in the darkest of dawn i think about you. But you and i have HER,

So please dont leave
maybe not just yet