#HeartOfAWriter#

Here I am Laying right next to you, everything within wanting everything about you Yet my pride wont let me My pride tells me I will be deemed weak if I be the first to stretch out my hand and meet yours Dont mistake my ability to face my back at yours for strength, cause its not. Its the pain that continues to batter me for not ignoring my pride Ignoring the fact that we are all prone to era and that that just makes us perfectly flawed My heart is weak, yet my body keeps fighting my heart not to give in Not to tell you jst how much I  want you.... how much I need us intertwined like it would be dawn forever Right in your arms where i rightly belong Yet my pride tells me you are the man and you ought to make the first move... So days, weeks, months pass and here we are where we were 5months ago Because both our pride wont give in What happened to always and forever

Am jealous Please dont judge me but I am jealous I know yes you will tell me jealous is not of God. You should know that Norah,you are a christian But here I am telling the world am jealous What makes my jealous subject for criticism though? Is it cause I said it out? Wait. Are you saying it would have been christian if I was jealous but the world just dint I know about it? The only difference is that you know enough for you to judge But anyway, please dont judge me Cause I really am jealous I am jealous of how he loves you How he says your name with a smirk on his face Am jealous of how he loves your every being His love for you is written all over him. Literally... Well that's because he has enough shirts on with your name on each one of them Like he wears his love for you as a badge of honour Am jealous of the effort he puts just to make you happy How he stares in your eyes like he can see his entire future which is so blissful and certain Am jealous o...

Look at me, Tell me what you see I can hear you asking me why i look so low today I just smile and say maybe its cause am tired! Long day huh But deep down i know its only cause am scared Am scared of loving you Am scared of having you in my life and put a seal on it I tried dating someone that looks so much like you and we dint last We were drowning eachother and the only solution was to let go before we both drowned and died So each time i look at you its like dejavu So am scared to try, all i see in your eyes is innocense  or is it sadness or both You love me yes and i have no doubt about that. And i love you too But will i embrace it all or will it choke me and end up pushing you away? See right through me Look into my eyes and see within me Tell me? What do you see? Do you see a free spirited cheesy freely loving girl Or do you see the million times tomented girl that for so long failed to tame her heart to love Cause i sometimes see dejavu and i co...

Please!! Dont leave Maybe not just yet Believe me when i say its you i love, but i just dont know why its not you am with Sometimes i wake up in the darkest of dawn watch her sleep and i miss you I dont even knw why i am here i cant even put a finger on how we got here. Sometimes i sit and miss the days we were young and free. The days you wouldnt stop talking even when i didnot say a word. Those days when you where just enough for me, when not even the skimpest dresses driffted my eyes off you. Maybe that could have been the perfect time for you to leave. But then here we are...and am her's. I am not complaining. cause i have learnt to love her like i did with you and i am in a happy place. Not that am choosing her over you but it just happened and i have little control over my emotions lately. But it seems i might end up with her, and i know how much this hurts you so much you wanna leave, Leave me for her. I already got down on one knee for her, but maybe if tha...

All hail the veil That I so much look forward to wearing someday Not someday actually, soon, the vail I hope to wear soon. All hail the veil I so bad want to fall off my head covering the doll faced beauty beneath All hail the veil regardless of the man causing me to wear it So much about the veil and so little or nothing about the reason I am wearing it Anyone ever thought of telling me how important the after is more than the beauty that will characterise me behind that trapless back laced floor sweeping white linen. Yes thats how much I have my dress all figured out in my head. Turquoise and white will be the colours my bridemaids will have to work with. Yes am stuck in the moment mesmerized by the fairytale, the fatansy, the admiration that comes with being a bride Society sure does that to us, psychologically grooming us to be a bride, more so when the societal expected age is approaching. The envy from the world, from those who are not so close enough to given p...

Before I say I do, allow me to look around and be sure its you I wanna be with Allow me to know that its you that I will still want even when our days together nolonger feel like a honeymoon Before I say I do, allow me to hurt but still want only you...... Lets spend the week together and lets see if we wont strangle each other.....  .......Because when we say I do there will be no looking back no more "leave me lone" no more "I cant do this anymore" And your favourite line "Not today Norah! Not today"  LOL funny how it makes me laugh when I try to imitate you..... Cause bouy when its you saying it, it just has its way of piercing right through me. What am simply trying to tell you love..... ....... is there will be no running away ...not after saying I DO So before I say I do, look around you and tell me its still me you want This is the only chance  you get to look around.... ........because when we say I do....not even your iris o...

I MISS YOU I miss you No not today though am just saying I miss you I saw something that reminded me of you And I had a mental flash back and I missed you Not to say I miss you and me together It was merely just a flash back And I thought it right I mention that I did miss you Its been a while since I allowed such a flash back to penetrate my thoughts and allowed the thought to ignite the feeling of a void within which caused the missing And then a smile lite on my face so wide I could feel all my 32 teeth visible to whoever was in my view So I missed you today And for the the first time missing you dint hurt See, the day after you left I built a wall so high that made me believe you never existed I read pain can create personalities in your head to cover up all the pain and because of the effort to forget the pain the personalities seem so real and alive When you left I wished that on me..... but... it dint happen.  I guess I dint read the part which sai...